BINGE like no tomorrow for a month!!!

Hey y'all, I know, I know... I have been dodging my blog lately. The reason why I started posting more stuff back then was because Chinese New Year was coming up and I gotta look smokin red hot and trust me I did. But that victory was over celebrated with lots of pastries and junk food. And I try my best to incorporate healthy meals everyday but sometimes I just can't. For example, when I went back to my hometown I had no access to healthy foods. Plus, I have been restricting myself too much so when It came to eating. I ate the foods like there was no tomorrow. And I got sick. Maybe my body was not use to all the crap. Think I stopped there??? NO!! Being sick was another excuse I used to eat bread. And boy was I craving bread. I told myself I was going to be in control but I lost it!! 4 peanut cookies were around 250 calories. I knew that!! But that did not stop me from eating 20 of them even more. Literally!! And that did not include my other junky meals. Plus I was so tired of going hard on my exercise so I didn't. I was on health vacation for 2 weeks. Then I told myself enough and I was getting back on the wagon. But then during the entire week if being healthy. I felt like shit!!! My sugar cravings were like calling out to me plus I still have so many Chinese New Year pastries in my house. I had a little sugary snacks here and there to satisfy the cravings but everytime 1 turns into 2 and so on. By the time it was Friday night, it was another traditional Chinese New Year celebration where the entire family sits down and have a reunion dinner. Guess what??? I blew my week!!! In that one platter, including the multiple rounds afterwards. The next day was another family celebration at the BUFFET!!! I guess 3 rounds if unhealthy junk like butter chicken really set me off like a competitive eating champion. Plus, caramel cakes and gelatin made me so happy. Wait for it.... 8 pieces of awesome carrot cakes. Did I feel guilty? No!! They were the bomb. Sunday, why not start on Monday? I ate like there was no tomorrow!!! And guess what I have gained from 49kilos to 52 kilos ;) yes, I'm.... Sad... The reason I was so motivated to go all out because there was a goal to reach. Now? There is no goal. But the Cambodia trip I'm taking at the end of the weak, but I'm not gonna have the confidence like I had to wear tank tops and shorts.... So I've decided to.....